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It has been a really stressful path, and even more things go wrong. However, today I am at my dream school and in my dream program. Yet there is a catch, I just knew nothing would go right. It first started with the financial aid hiccups, and my own issues through orientation. This is supposed to be my end of the road, and the beginning of a new path. I literally have everything I want in my grasp...I had to know it was to good to be true.
Apparently the dept had failed to send me some proper information and at the end of a pretty amazing first day, everything went to hell. I felt clueless, and childish. I am apparently supposed to be auditioning for the the main production or I get kicked out of the program, when I heard this I freaked. I did not know this, I wasn't told this, so I went to speak with a counselor. In the period of our discussion she realized I had slipped through the cracks in the audition process, but not for the show....for the program. So I just had to pick the one damn bachelors program that needed an audition. That's just my luck.
I was told that I had to audition Wed...and I nearly starting crying in her office. Thats just not possible...one day to set up three monologues, especially when I haven't had an audition in YEARS! So I was given till tuesday....the day of the main production audition. Sign ups are Thursday and Friday, but I'll be out of town. So apparently I have till tues, with Dragon*Con in between to prepare four monologues for three different auditions.....and if I screw one up I'm out of the program.
....I don't know how I made it back to my car without collapsing.
My dream is being stripped from me again, because I honestly don't see how I can get prepared in time. If I don't make the program I am no longer allowed to try for the Theatre degree and unless I switch schools AGAIN...I will have to change my major. I don't know what I'm going to do, or how I'm going to handle this.
I just know, no matter how worthless this makes me, if I fail at this.....I'm going missing for a few days, and I don't know where I'll go.
I just wish I could have one thing go right, and not come crashing down on me when I am truly weak to fight back.
- Mood:
crushed
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=upZ33318
This song just makes me happy
- Mood:
cheerful
However, I knew there would come a day when you touched a book that I would despise you for. I understand the fact you studios seem to have absolutely NO new ideas for anything anymore.
BUT YOU TOUCHED FOUNDATION!
ROLAND EMMERICH IS FRAKKING WITH FOUNDAT
I'm sorry but Asimov is a Sci-fi MASTER! Foundation is a brilliant trilogy, but not as a movie trilogy.
ITS UNFILMABLE! ....and EMMERICH are you crazy! All he does is produce heavily CGIed crap!
....and the only way to make a movie that suits the heavily CGied, no plot loving audience today YOU NEED ACTION!
Foundation has no real main character, it covers a thousand years and every two chapter is a new conversation between two people about sociology, psychology, and statistics! The whole book is a BLOODY MIND GAME!
WHAT ARE YOU FILMMAKERS THINKING!!!!!!!!
- Mood:
pissed off
( I loved him so much... )
- Mood:
pensive
Well I finally got to see my main draw at the Tallahassee Film Festival.
AND....
"How to Be" was frakkin hysterical! I laughed myself into coughing fits and Robert Pattinson and the rest of the cast were just amazing.
I was also privledged to meet most of the cast, the director and the man who did most of the music. They were all a riot and it felt like they had just walked right off the movie. After the Q&A a group of friends and me walked outside to chat, grab pictures and some autographs. Lets just get this out now THEYRE ALL ADORABLY BRITISH. Oliver Irving (Director) was as kind as could be and I had him sign my program (sadly the only person I was able to get sign it). We talked to him about his next film that I really will keep my fingers crossed for, sounded amazing! Then I met Joe Hasting who did all the music for the film. So kind and the easiest to talk to. He and I ended up having a conversation about selling crack to pay off student loans. He kept his composure, I couldn't; so I just nodded my head and tried not to burst out laughing (he's also quite dashing). The onto the cast members Johnny White and Mike Pearce, who played Ronnie and Nikki repsectively. I didn't get to talk to Mike much, nor a picture, but he was funny. Johnny was just adorable and I grabbed a picture with him and teased him ab0out not smiling, which led to really weird connection to the victorian era....alas all of this just continued my score of having bizarre conversations with people in film industry.
But all I can say is....BRITISH MEN ARE ADORABLE AND DAMN R
I'll edit in pictures later.
So tonight I trekked back to my uninhabitable apartment, with a painters mask and tons of antibacterial stuff to watch the BSG finale; as my hotel gets all of like three channels. Most people believed me sitting in a mold infest apartment was insane....
So was sitting for three hours with a mask on worth it....
was freezing my ass off, to keep the windows open for three hours, worth it....
was having possible allergic reactions to the mold worth it....
YES!!!!!!
Though with people having conflicting emotions about the revelations in the finale, and the few plot holes, I thought it was AMAZING! I will talk about it more after I've watched it again. I just need to toss it all around in my head or this post would look like word vomit. But Battlestar Galactica is officially my favorite tv, and will be for years to come. That finale was very satisfying, and yeah the Kara thing still irks me....so she did really die in Maelstrom.....but everything just felt right, and I was at peace with it at the end.
- Mood: content
- Music:All Along the Watchtower-Mcrearys version
Now I wonder what the writers were really planning for lee and kara and seriously....just because of Truccos accident they can't change something they were building up the whole series.
So this is why we have had soo little lee and kara, but I'm still holding out hope...they have hinted at things the entire time. i think Trucco stuff just made for more intense scenes betweem Starbuck and Anders.....Well I'll keep hoping!
Now back to my real life and a flooded apartment....weee
Ok, since I have stopped myself from writing some seriously angsty posts lately, I want to do something light hearted; especially since angst will be coming soon. However, I am trying to keep my mind off certain things today, so why not something light.
I have been seeing tons of things like this lately, and so I decided to give my two cent!
( Top 5 Scenes I Can't wait to see in New Moon )
I'm having the oddest of moments. Currently I feel completely calm, and yet I am beyond tense. I haven't been able to identify what it is. However, to keep my incessant worry down over it I have purposefully put myself into a Sigur Ros haze....
This is not something a fan nor a film student wants to hear...*head.desk*
Twilight made a butt load of money, which apparently made Summit weep!! So in an effort to turn the films out as fast as possible.....Catherine Hardwicke is not directing New Moon or Eclipse. This is happening because her film prep time would not allow for New Moon to be released by the end of 2009, early 2010.
Hardwicke has a VERY specific filming style, it is why Twilight feels like an indie film. So what the the rest of the movies going to suck. Ohhhh not only is she not directing, but New Moon and Eclispe are being filmed BACK TO BACK!
I seriously am worried for the franchise now, and hope whomever Summit finds to direct these films is decent....
-Dash
This is possibly one of the greatest quotes I have ever found; and if your my friend you know how much of a quote fiend I am.
Finals are this week. French is still kicking my arse, and I should be studying. Instead I am pretty much spent the day with one of my favorite painters; Salvador Dali. This has been mostly sparked by myself. I have been caught staring at my replica of the Hallucinogenic Toreador (which I'm planning on going to see again when I return to the south for x-mas) that is hanging on my door, and Robert Pattinson. Have you heard he's playing Dali in his new film Little Ashes. The level of my excitement for this film is unreal. The trailer of all frakkin things made me cry (I'm INTJ, I don't cry)! However, the film just looks stunning, and I am in need of good film. The only thing good I have seen recently was Into the Wild. *pouts*
Ugh, I am ignoring studying and this stupid French study guide I have been spending all day to create. I am so freaked out by this exam, and worried beyond measure. I just had to get the worst class of my academic career in the semester I finally figured out that college is not my place in this world. It has made getting through my daily classes hell on Earth. *head.desk*
I just want it to be break already, because I keep staring longingly at all the books that I am going to read with the small reprieve I have from University.
On a happier note, I gave my brother Twilight today, and holy crap he was excited. Hell I was excited watching him. This is my younger brother who refuses to read, and the Twilight Saga was the only thing that he asked for xmas. I SUPER excited about this, for this is the kid who hasn't even read Harry Potter.
Ok, I just needed to rant. I don't think this post had any true merit, but I shall leave my faithful imaginary readers with ( this... )( this... )
Even though many people like to criticize ‘Twilight’ and even now make fun of the movie. I will always continue to love and watch this film.
I can ignore the critics, because I have never agreed with them anyway, and I can take the “He doesn’t have sex” comments. Because I will never forget looking at that movie screen and shaking from excitement. I will remember Charlie and Billy’s faux teen humor, Facinelli’s flawless Carlisle, my surprise that Lautner could act, and even Mike’s diner ass shakes. I will keep talking about when I clutched my bag because the Cullens walked into the cafeteria, and the ’aww’ I let out when Jasper took Alice’s hand. The fact I could see the contacts could never diminish the way I felt when Edward admitted to not being able to stay away from Bella, and the fact the actors pulled off the absolute love between the characters. I won’t mock Rosalie’s “That’s my monkey man” because I know that is the way the characters would talk to each other, and I will never wonder why Edward hunched his shoulder’s in the hallway because I have never related to a literary character more; and Rpattz played him perfectly. So yeah say whatever you want for I will take your comments, your attacks, and your mockery. I have come to terms with the fact I am alone in everyone of my opinions these days, but no matter what -- this was my 'Twilight'
…and I will be in line for New Moon in 2010
Today I have decided to write a book, basically so that I can use this character in another realm. My purpose in doing this is to get it published and one day when I sell the film rights I put a stipulation in there that says Peter Facinelli has to play him. Because it has hit me that they look exactly alike, and its seriously messing with me.
Wow...all I can say is WOW! ....that episode was soo quintessentially Supernatural!
( So here is my thoughts on the return.... )
A bit about my day....
1. I hit a guy on a bike with my car....not my fault! But I was soo scatterbrained afterwards I was late for class, and completely out of it.
2. Ii sliced my ankle open shaving, something I haven't done since I was a wee tot, who didnt know what a razor was!
3. I have just now realised the wonders of Peter Facinelli, and a picspam cost me a late assignment for class. Plus, the fact he looks like the exact physical manifestation of a original character of mine is really messing with my head.
4. Rpattz and his effing expressions, ugh I need to break from Twilight a little bit.
Bohemian September- fighting back agaisnt all the bad shit in your life. As September is the month of bad news, take action against it and make it your own.
Thats a definition I came up with many years ago, for when all the things bad start to happen in your life. It is never more true than this month, which coinsidentally is September. I really hate this month. School has been a right bitch, and to top off the fact i just moved to this town and have no friends, no firm grip of the town, and no job It has been hell. I may not be able to fix the job thing, because of a French class that is now ruining my life, but i am determined to make something of everything else. I have been having massive issues getting a schedule laid out, since most class work is coming out of nowhere, and again French is putting me behind in everything. I need to find a good middle ground for my life right now.
Today had to have been one of the worst and giggliest days of my life. First i cut my foot shaving, something I haven't done since I was a wee babe and wanted to know what this contraption my mother always used on her legs. Bled like a fucker too, and it stings!
Then I went to class late, because I hit a guy riding a bike....OMG! It was not fun, but it wasnt my fault, the guy wasn't hurt, and I gave him a ride home.
I realised that Peter Facinelli is the physical manifestation of a original character of mine, and I went apeshit with a picspam....frakker he is gorgeous and I'm a tad loony right now. Of course....Facinelli led me into Twilight and Rpattz has be giggling again....British men need to be banned, or locked in my bedroom! Then this leads me back to Facinelli....is he going to have a british accent in the film.....Oh gods help me!
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I sit at a crossroads in my life right now and so much twiddles through my head on a daily basis. I just want to be able to talk about music I find, movies I hate, tv show discussion, and a place to be who I am. Yes, I realise this opening entry sounds a tad creepy, but I don't really care.
So, hello again Livejournal, lets start this journey.
p.s.- I'll be updating this thing as much as I can, and adding back to my profile.
p.s.s.- I Will also start my posts with lthree things from my day...I find getting random stuff out helps.
